The world is so fake.
People only want you for your job. Your status. Your clout. Your looks. Your money. Whatever you can offer them. That's the entry ticket. That's what gets them to text you back, invite you out, slide into your DMs.
Nobody wants to know you. They want to leech off of you.
And here's the part that messes with me — even if I had money, and I started noticing people suddenly wanting to be my friend for the money or the status? I wouldn't take the time to befriend them either. Because I'd know. I'd see right through it. So now nobody wins. They want me for fake reasons. I see through them and shut them out. And we both walk away.
The world is too fake. It's actually depressing.
Real friendships — like actually wanting to be friends with someone because of their personality and interests? That's so rare. Most people don't even have one. They have networks. They have contacts. They have people they hang out with because it's mutually beneficial. But friends who genuinely just like you for you? That's a unicorn.
I haven't even made it yet and I already get why people say "it's lonely at the top." Well — it's lonely at the top IF you realize what's happening and choose not to roll with fake people. Most rich people probably just accept the fakeness because being used feels better than being alone. They'd rather have leeches than no one. That's how lonely it gets.
And let's talk relationships. Same thing, but worse. It's usually one-sided in terms of who needs to be the successful one. That's not misogyny — that's just gender differences. Men can't be broke mfs in a relationship unless you a Marlon looking type beat. It's just reality. Not saying it's impossible, but it's harder unless you truly meet a real person who loves you for your character and your values.
But that's almost nonexistent.
Even in places where you'd THINK people would accept you for who you are. cough cough church.
Sometimes I hate religious people. They are some of the biggest hypocrites I've ever met. You'd expect them to be real. You'd expect church to be where you finally find genuine people. That's literally the brand. Love thy neighbor. Care for the poor. All that. But I've experienced it firsthand — if you got nothing to offer these people, you are nothing to them. Same fakeness as everyone else, just with a Bible verse on top.
But then I have to remind myself. They're humans too. Going to church doesn't erase being human. They want what they want just like everybody else. Maybe I'm just naive for expecting more from them.
That's why the friends that stuck with you at your lowest are everything. The ones who were there when you had nothing to offer. When you had no status, no money, no clout, no glow up. Those are the real ones. Hold onto them.
Everyone else is just there for the meal ticket or wanting to be part of the success story.
And honestly? Since I've been a loner my whole life, I don't even want to make it just for the sake of getting friends. There's no winning that way. If I make it and people show up, I'll know it's fake. If I don't make it, nobody shows up at all. Either way I'm alone.
So I'd rather just wait. Wait for the few rare people who actually want to bond over similar interests. Not for what job I have. Not for clout. Not for money. Just two people who actually like each other for who they are.
If I find that, I'm good. That's enough.
If I don't, then I'd rather be alone than surrounded by people who only see me as a step on their ladder.