You know the meme. "I'm not like other guys." Every dude says it. Every dude thinks it. It's a joke at this point. The biggest red flag in the book.
But ong. I'm actually not.
And that's the problem. How do I even prove it? The second the words leave my mouth I sound like every other clown who's ever said the same thing. The meme ate the meaning. Now there's no way to even say what's true without sounding like a fraud.
But I'm telling you. I'm not on what these guys are on. I'm not chasing clout. I'm not running game. I'm not pretending to be hard. Ion even got IG followers. No one. Im alone in dis life.
I just want to vibe. Talk about the political and economic state of the world fr. Sit with somebody who's not performing like a matcha small habits performative asian mf. That's it. That's the whole thing.
But how do you prove that to anyone. You can't. You say it and you sound like the meme. You don't say it and nobody ever finds out. Either way you lose. Either way you're alone.
And the real kicker is even if I could prove it, there's nobody on the other side to prove it to. There's no chill homie out there. Ong. Not one. Searched everywhere. Online, offline, in person, in rooms full of people. Zero matches. If I was gay, Id still be alone.
So what's the point of being different if there's nobody different to find you. What's the point of being real if everyone around you is fake. What's the point of holding the line when the line leads nowhere.
I don't know. I really don't.
I just keep being me. Cause I don't know how to be anything else. And maybe one day somebody clocks it. Maybe not. Probably not.
it is what it is twinski.