It's impossible to find like minded people. I've been looking for years. I got no one.
Like genuinely no one. Not one person I can call up and talk to about the stuff that actually matters to me. The way I see the world. The questions I sit with. The things I'm chasing. Nobody's on that wavelength.
Everyone's on their own thing. Which I get. That's life. But it's lonely as hell when you realize you've never had a single conversation where you didn't have to dumb yourself down or pretend to care about something you don't.
You meet people and you think maybe this one. Maybe we click. Then 2 weeks in you realize they want different things. They think different. They're chasing different stuff. They don't see what you see. And you go back to being alone in your own head.
It's sad. It's depressing. I won't pretend it isn't.
But what can I do? Everyone's got their own problems. Everyone's drowning in their own stuff. I can't make people care about the things I care about. I can't force a connection that isn't there. I can't keep trying to fit into circles that were never built for me.
So you just sit with it. You keep thinking. You keep going. Alone.
Maybe one day. Maybe never. Probably never.
It is what it is.