If I die it's a gift. Straight up.
I'll be happy in the afterlife. That's the whole deal. No more sitting in this body in this room in this generation feeling nothing. Just peace. Just done.
Cause let's be real. I wasted my life. No connections. No homies that'll show up. No one to remember me when I'm gone. Nobody at the funeral with stories. Nobody to talk good about me at the wake. Nobody who'll even notice for a week. Maybe two. That's the truth and I'm not gonna pretend otherwise. People move on with their lives anyways, even when the legends die. So how am I different?
Life was just a waste. Pointless. No fun experiences worth replaying. No memories. No archive. No camera roll full of nights I'll miss. No group chat that lights up. No phone full of fit pics, no hard ahh photos to leave behind. Just an empty timeline of me alone in my room thinking too hard about everything.
It's over. It really is.
And the thing is I don't even like life fr. So it's all good. I'm not losing anything I was actually enjoying. I'm just clocking out of a shift I never wanted in the first place. If anything dying is the part of life I'd actually be down for. Finally something that sounds chill.
I'm not scared of it. Well nah I'm being fr, I am scared of it. I don't want to die a shitty awful way ong. I'm not sad about it. I'm not even mad about it anymore. I accepted it.
To the rare chill homies out there. The ones who somehow stumble onto this blog. The ones who get it without me having to explain. The ones who'd actually vibe with me if life lined up different. I fw u heavy. For real. You don't even know.
Keep going in life gang. Keep grinding. Keep being real. Don't let this generation make you fake. Don't let the noise pull you off your line. The world needs more of you and less of everybody else.
I'm rooting for y'all from wherever I end up.
it is what it is twinski.