I gotta accept it. There's no chill homies like me in this generation. Not one. Guy or girl, doesn't matter. I've looked. I've tried. They don't exist.
Gen Z is so weird. And the funniest part is I'm the one considered weird. I'm the weird one. In a generation full of the strangest people I've ever encountered in my life, I'm the one that doesn't fit. Make it make sense.
Everyone's performing. Everyone's chasing clout. Everyone's terminally online and pretending they're not. Everyone's anxious about everything but won't actually talk about anything real. Everyone's got an opinion on stuff that doesn't matter and nothing to say about the stuff that does. Everyone's a brand. Nobody's a person.
And I'm just sitting here trying to find one chill person. One. Just somebody to vibe with. Somebody who's not putting on a show. Somebody who actually thinks before they speak. Somebody who's down to just exist without making it weird. That's all I want.
Doesn't exist.
I've met probably hundreds of people in this generation at this point. Online, in person, through friends, through work, through everything. Not one match. Not one. The hit rate is literally zero.
So what do I do. I keep searching forever? Keep getting let down? Keep meeting people thinking maybe this one and getting hit with the same disappointment? Nah. I'm done with that.
I'm just gonna accept it. There's nobody. There's not gonna be anybody. This is the deck I got dealt. Born in the wrong generation, wrong wavelength, wrong everything. Cool.
Like I'm on studystream right now. A whole website built around studying with other people. The entire point is company. Sit in a room with strangers, lock in together, feel less alone while you grind. That's the pitch.
And I can't even feel company there. On the website literally designed for it. I'm sitting in these rooms with people and I still feel like an outcast. Just vibing to music, can't focus cause my adhd is fried, looking at all these faces on the screen and feeling nothing. No connection. No vibe. Just more strangers existing near me. Same as everywhere else in life.
Not a single person in any of these rooms tryna actually be friends. Not one. I'm the rarest, chillest Korean American Gen Z mf out here. I just want peace and company. That's it. That's the whole ask. And nobody's down. Everyone's too fake. Everyone's heads down doing their thing. Nobody's tryna build anything real.
Chicks denying me too and I'm not even THAT ugly. NAH im playing...
And honestly at this point I'm just gonna live my life high af. That's it. That's the move. I can't force connection that isn't there. I can't change a whole generation. I can't make people be normal. So I'm gonna stay in my own world, smoke, vibe, do my own thing, and stop waiting for somebody who's never coming.
it is what it is twinski.